幸褔?

April 26th, 2008

怎樣為之幸福呢?從前我毫無概念--幸福,大概就是那些電視電影的sterotype畫面,男人在夕陽下抱起女兒旋轉720度曲體落地,四萬咁口......咪講笑啦。

英語中有句諺語「No News is good news」,這句話也隱含了所謂「平凡是福」的意思吧。我從前對這句話嗤之以鼻,覺得「你都老鬼土,阿伯先講呢D野」。不過,現在我明白這麼老土的一句話,同時也富含智慧。原來,平凡的日子是多麼的奢侈,而我竟然麻木地浪費掉,一點也不心痛。

我今年廿六歲了,但我對人生和這個世界仍沒有甚麼概念,視線仍然相當模糊。你說我找到幸福的真諦嗎?當然沒有。但我隱約感到某種東西在背後推動我,著我摸索「幸福」這個東西,摸索我的人生在追求甚麼。傳統上這叫做開竅,現代一點的說法是「有左個mindset」。人們說屬雞的人今年行運,我想,所謂行運並不是身邊發生了甚麼好事,有時可能身邊的壞事一籮籮,但因為這些事,我們開竅了,這才最關重要。


Happy Birthday to Us!

March 27th, 2008

Line & Charlie,多謝你地呢個咁正既生日會,玩得好開心!

點解呢番說話會倒返轉頭講呢?

2008 終點見,然後在終點之後

February 17th, 2008

一年一度渣打馬拉松的大日子又來了。如我上年所言,今年我繼續報名參加。

為甚麼要去跑馬拉松呢?不為甚麼,我們需要擁抱共同目標的感動。為了這種感動,我已經想報名跑下一年的馬拉松了。

但,這種感動去了那裏呢?在東區走廊的臨海天橋上,我見到喬寶寶為途人打氣,我見到狗和小孩在努力踏步,我見到公路旁的居民在玻璃窗上貼上「加油GoGoGo」的海報,我見到來自日本的視覺障害者在克服身體障礙。不過,我心裏想到的只是:「快點完成吧,要超越其他人。然後回家休息,明天又要上班。」簡直像是在交功課,完全沒有任何感覺,沒有被甚麼東西感動,雙腿根據指示機械化地擺動了十公里。完成以後我得到些甚麼嗎?只不過是一個時間和一張證書罷了,而那個時間根本不起眼,可說是全無意思。如果現在你問我下年會參加嗎?我會答很想參加。但為甚麼要參加呢?我真的不清楚。

雖然今年的時間比往年更佳,但我並不覺得興奮。這一年間,我的心態是否改變了很多?變得更加泠漠,更加不懂得去欣賞這個世界,更加不忠於自己的心?我真不希望「世故」就是這個意思。

Simon and Garfunkel - The concert in Central Park

February 11th, 2008

今日路經星際,順道逛一下中古唱片舖,心血來潮買了這隻CD。Mrs RobinsonBridge over troubled water等等都是經典之作吧,旋律大家都應該耳熟能詳了。不過他們最經典的歌曲應該是The Sounds of Silence,Paul和Art的和唱相當優美和諧,歌詞亦甚有詩意,不過歌曲的意思卻不是笨拙的和稀泥浪漫,反而相當有批判性--我們的空虛和疏離之聲。


http://hk.youtube.com/watch?v=8Kd8xp86reY

Hello darkness, my old friend,
I’ve come to talk with you again,
Because a vision softly creeping,
Left its seeds while I was sleeping,
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence.

In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone,
‘Neath the halo of a street lamp,
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence.

And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more.
People talking without speaking,
People hearing without listening,
People writing songs that voices never share
And no one dared
Disturb the sound of silence.

“Fools” said I, “You do not know
Silence like a cancer grows.
Hear my words that I might teach you,
Take my arms that I might reach you.”
But my words like silent raindrops fell,
And echoed
In the wells of silence.

And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon god they made.
And the sign flashed out its warning,
In the words that it was forming.
And the sign said, “The words of the prophets are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls.”
And whisper’d in the sounds of silence.

要怎樣過馬路?

January 20th, 2008


http://hk.youtube.com/watch?v=NU2wn9L0DXc

伊莉莎白過了一條很長很長的馬路,目前為止她遇過最長的馬路。過馬路--重點不在於渡過馬路彼岸,而是我們的心過渡到哪裏。

My Blueberry Nights (藍莓之夜)